| it's like chocolate, but on fire! |
[Oct. 20th, 2009|10:53 am] |
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I hate my life. I'm barely awake 'cause I'm addicted to caffeine. I am going on no sleeps! And all i can do is play fucking pokemons. I hate myself. Time to write a paper about fucking children developing mental illnesses because of their parents!
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| I hate Florida |
[Aug. 3rd, 2009|09:40 pm] |
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I just got home from going to my grandparents' house in Miami. They were crazy and speak Spanish, it was hot and humid, and EVERYONE in the stores spoke Spanish. I'm happy to be home. |
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| So my last 5 months in a nutshell! Yay! |
[Jul. 19th, 2009|11:40 pm] |
I got a life and friends. They are both awesome as hell. Passed all my classes but one. Statistics is fun to learn when the teacher KNOWS what they ARE TEACHING. I had my birthday. It was fun. A lot of drinking was involved. I'm still working at my asshole job. I hate it. I will now apply for a new job a good 2/3rds into summer. Not a smart idea. I beat some video games, too. They were fun and I'm learning that non-RPGs can be fun too.
Speaking of RPGs I am now a DnD nerd. I have enough books to kill a medium sized child with. They are all for character building. My god I love character building. I play 4e only (at the moment) because 3e seems kind of...unorganized? I don't know I like making healing buffers. For the first time I made a meat shield. It was ridiculous. It was a level 5 Paladin with an AC of 24. Let's just say that's pretty good for a level 5 character.
Hmm.... I haven't used photoshop since school. I will post something later. It will be fun! |
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| The Joys of Not Sleeping |
[Mar. 24th, 2009|11:04 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | My bedroom | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  energetic | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Valencia | ] |
So, I have been having fun. With work, school, and hanging out with friends my schedule has been really tied up. I'm happy actually.
Also last night I wasn't allowed to sleep or have caffeine because of this brain wave test that I needed done. Man, did that suck.
But I'm happy now! |
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| My how time has passed |
[Feb. 19th, 2009|11:03 am] |
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So the new year has been around for a month and half. Yipee. So it's just like last year only colder, for now. And the economy is in the shitter. YES! I still hate my job, I like the challenge of school, and hanging out with people is fun. I wish we'd do something other than DnD. I can feel myself becoming the Dnd guy. So much hate to that I tell ya. And I think I might have the ADD... |
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| About New Year's Resolutions |
[Jan. 10th, 2009|11:42 pm] |
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| |  tired | ] |
My resolution, well, I've been following through mosttly. But not really with my deviantart. I don't have any pens to ink with anymore and no moneys to get another. But my youtybe has basically been doing better since I don't need a pen when it comes to putting videos together. Anywho I need to update my youtube today. I plan to update this deviantart as soon as I get a goddamn pen. |
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| God, it sucks being so sick |
[Jan. 5th, 2009|06:48 pm] |
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| | tired | ] |
I really hate feeling like crap. It makes my inner asshole come out. Also it makes me so tired that I call out of work. |
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| Updated my Youtube finally |
[Dec. 20th, 2008|09:12 am] |
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| |  accomplished | ] |
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| | A Beautiful World | ] |
So last night I couldn't get to sleep because my work clothes were in the washing machine. And the machine decided to stop working. So I was up until at least four o'clock to get the washing machine to start spinning. So while waiting for it to get to spin I updated my Youtube here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fSjd3FHRZOo
It took me not too long to splice this video together. But posting made me realize how negligent I have been online. So the DeviantArt is getting an update next then next weekend I'm posting up another video!
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| Hurray! No more school! |
[Dec. 17th, 2008|11:22 pm] |
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| | amused | ] |
Yes, today was my first day off now that my semester's done! I have no idea what my grades are only that there's no more I can do to boost them. So, I suddenly have some time on my hands. Probably going to clean up my room and get some drawing done! |
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| So here's what's going on so far.... |
[Dec. 8th, 2008|11:33 pm] |
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| | Polyamorous ~Breaking Benjamin | ] |
So my semester is almost over and I am damn certain I'm going to fail one of my classes. I still hate my job, but it's more like a friendly dislike. Thanks to the job market being basically empty it's not like I can quit. It's freezing in my whole has since there's no house-wide heating system. I do have a 'portable' radiater that is keeping my room nice and toasty though. It's hard to venture out into the cold to do laundy! My room is like 70 degress while the house is mostly in the 20s!
I've had no time to post ANYTHING I've wanted to post up. With the end of school I will have plenty of time to do that. Hurray! My main computer is really dusty again and windows bugged up so I'm using a spare pc right now. It has almost none of the hardware I have installed so unless I do some searching that means no scanning or printing. I hope to have it cleaned really REALLY soon like tomorrow or Wednesday.
On another note my DnD group met for the first time this month yesterday. And even the other guy who had started DM-ing thought I was awesome. I basically took my playable character out of the campaign to be used later. And I did my best to make things into a cohesive whole. I did a good job of having only two encounters lasting more than 4 hours. Everyone came out having fun.
So for the future: I have exams until midway through next week. This Saturday I might make myself a new icon. I have to prepare for DnD for the first time in half-a-month. And christmas tree shopping will be done! This will be one hell of a week! |
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| I am very cold and kind of sick |
[Nov. 12th, 2008|04:53 pm] |
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I love staying in my bed since my house has NO HEATING whatsoever. Today I felt sick and skipped school. God I hate doing that. I'm gonna post something up today on my deviantart. |
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| And WEEEE! |
[Nov. 9th, 2008|08:11 am] |
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So I got so much homework to do, no time to do it. I have work today in like half-an-hour or so. For the whole day. And then I was going to go to DnD today but that got canceled. All I can say is thank god. I have an exam tomorrow and a six page essay to turn in late. I'm sorry to say that I'm not going to posting much in the near future. |
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| Wish I had time |
[Oct. 29th, 2008|02:31 pm] |
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| | tired | ] |
I don't have time for anything anymore. It's all school, work, and sleep. I have worked every Friday for the last month and it's pissing me the fuck off.
I have DnD encounters to make and a paper to write so see ya! |
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| I've Been Really Obsessed Lately |
[Oct. 19th, 2008|09:26 pm] |
I've been obsessed with monkeys, monkeys, MONKEYS! Ahem, it would be more accurate to say that I've been obsessed with Ape Escape 2. I just beat Specter (the second one) and am actually considering to play the entire game again as Spike. And Ape Escape 3 is on it's way. SQUEE! Too bad after I'm done that game there won't be any more monkey catching save for that crappy PS1 game...
Anyway in life today, this the second of my five days I don't need to go into work. Man, I am so gleeful at not having to go to that stupid place. The Loss Prevention guy called me over the other day and I scared shitless. No because I've done anything bad but because it's LP.
Oh yes, I still have three more essays to write. Going to write one tomorrow. I've finally accepted the fact that my semester is essay-heavy and have decided to embrace it. I took someone out for their 21st birthday last week. It was a lot of fun accept that she doesn't like/is allergic to to many things! I skipped DnD today since I'm actually feeling pretty sicky.
But I finally cleaned my room. It's amazing just how much open space there is! Anywho, this is my to-do list for this week:
Write Essays & Homework in general
Draw for the Contest
Read Through my Mail |
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| I wish I had a tulip |
[Oct. 9th, 2008|11:31 am] |
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| | chipper | ] |
So how's life at the moment? It's all right I guess.
School: I go to school three times a week. I have one class having me write an essay a week. The other every other week. And with a third my exams are essays. So yeah I'm all essay-ed out. I hate writing actually. On the bright side I'm getting plenty of writing experience and I carpool with someone so gas isn't too bad.
Work: I work on the days I don't have school. I'm starting to really HATE my job. I've been promised a raise like 4 months ago! And this Friday if I don't get it I'm looking else where. I can't stand it! I've wanted to quit forever. In fact last year I did quit, then got rehired. Too bad the job market where I live is so bad at the moment.
Social Life: I'm meeting with people about twice week right now. Sadly that's an improvement. I'm hardly on AIM or YIM anymore because I don't have time.
Speaking of time. It feels like I don't have any anymore. I dislike this. I really need to get my room clean and I really want to draw. Not just doodle buy actual real drawing. Oh well, I've got to go. Despite this negative post I'm actually doing kind of all right. Kind Of. |
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| So Life Keeps Going |
[Oct. 5th, 2008|12:59 am] |
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| | content | ] |
And going at the same pace without change. Except there's this person in one of my classes that I'm kind of attracted to now. I'm relatively ok I guess |
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| School is really annoying |
[Sep. 22nd, 2008|03:29 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | My room | ] |
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| | tired | ] |
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| | Papa Roach | ] |
It is a very annoying thing. I never have time for anything anymore. When I do have time I'm too tired to do anything. |
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| I hate my life so much |
[Sep. 2nd, 2008|12:49 am] |
So I am going to finally stop using this peice of shit computer that is has no programs and such. It completely sucks asss. I don't feel any inspiration to do anything at all. I could wangst about how it's not really MY fault that I'm such a lazy bum. But that would I total bitchy thing to do. And I'm no one's bitch. By the way this post is going to be tl;dr. Just to warn ya.
So first thing's first, today was Labor Day. I had to work today. Without extra pay. I absolutely hate my job but I love the people I work with. So I'm really torn because I've worked there for 3 years. And my boss gave an AC since I totally bitched about not having one. It was amazing. So if that wasn't so sucky here comes the next layer.
I have no motivation for anything anymore, none what so ever. I feel completely without direction in my life. I've tried to grin down and bear it, but it's too much. I can't stand it. I used to love drawing but now I don't have any passion for it. I know I'm mediocre but I don't feel like I have the tie to improve. So I need to find something that I actually WANT to draw. But it's not just that. I don't know what I want to do with my life.
The only thing that I have improved on really is socially. I used to cocoon myself up in my room. But I've actually hung out with people, in real life, two day consecutively. It makes sad to admit that that's an improvement. But for the last couple years I haven't loved anyone. I used to WANT love. I was a creature of it. Now I realize that I've been lying to myself for years and hurts. I feel completely hollowed out.
That's what I feel like......
Hollow.....Incomplete... |
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| I'm getting less fat, YES! |
[Aug. 11th, 2008|11:26 am] |
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I took the last couple of days off from work. Because I'm a cheap skate I haven't had a lot of clothes that could fit into. But now, well for work I need to wear formal pants. So I'm wearing a pair that didn't fit me a couple months ago. It's a really amazing feeling to realize that even though I'm still a fatty my baby steps to slim down are paying off. |
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